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What It Means To Be Defeated

by Dayseeker

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1.
Black Earth 04:33
The needles that pierce my veins are drowning my world in flames I pray for this to stop but they burn, they burn No holy book, no plea's to the sky, will subside the fiending inside my mind I don't think that I'm ready to die yet but I'm so close I can barely stand My reflection shows a demon in me but I just want this to stop now Can you hear me? I just want this to stop now I'm helpless when my heart is heavy, when there is nothing else To tell me I am worth the effort to save myself Amidst the chaos in this sea of flames, my eyes turn from this black earth Everyone I know is looking down, their eyes filled with shame And everything I need is right in front of me but I just need to see The water that I sink in could be the same I walk on The truth is I'm still learning wrong from right They burn my world, I can taste defeat But I will make sure the earth sees one day that I'll be free from this sea of flames Black earth, I turn my eyes to see a new world where I can find peace
2.
One single mistake has resulted in my body breaking through the windshield My eyes are open and it feels like the first time I've ever seen the earth for what it could it be No promise to wake in the morning, how many seconds have I wasted and thrown away? Every minute is a chance to be the person that you want to believe exists inside of the mess you've created Because I think I need you to understand This collision survived was my second chance Awaking to this hospital bed, I exhale with closing eyes and thank god I'm alive Crimson blood stains my hands Don't know who's alive or dead I remember the worst from the night From the scar that was ripped into my face I swear on my life, I'll never forget this night I see ambulance lights flash and sing A song far too honest with me God, hear my voice one more time I'm the broken bone that needs to mend and become whole Hear my voice one more time Never again, never again will I sleep in the ground My hands are extending so reach in and pull me out I inhale with brand new lungs, surviving this collision
3.
So they read the news today, you had vanished without a trace And you lacked the spine to turn your back and say goodbye Now you’re just a ghost that occupies my thoughts, my every move All mountains for me to move Still I tell myself I’ll be just fine All these excuses lead me to a sun never rising again You were not someone I knew, just someone I learned to see through You were lying when you said we'd be permanent When did I become the one to give up? When did I become a transition to the next one? Maybe this won’t need to be repeated Maybe it’s to show me what it means to be defeated Wasn’t it enough to trade your bed for lust and tear me limb from limb? Hopeless heart, held inside of a desperate soul Smile while you’re stabbing me in the back again Precious knife held inside of a man who waits to die Could you send from my skin and show me one person I can put my trust in? Bring me the sun, wake me up from my dreams of giving up now I want to believe there’s permanence in me When did I become the one to give up on?
4.
Incinerate 04:41
When did you start to fester the hate, that crooked intent to take a life and seal his fate You sparked a fire that ruined my family but you started one in me, I will incinerate You and your home, every single thing you care for You can beg and repent but I won't stop until you Feel as lifeless as the body of my father's brother You can beg and repent but I won't stop If the dead can't speak for themselves, then I'll say it loud and clear Death is imminent and I will grin as it rips you from this world There will be no end to your pain, no new beginning for you to claim Just a cold, dark cell for you to live out your days and die alone The only thing I'll forget is the ability to forgive you Don't waste one worthless breath, your empty words will only fall on deaf ears I want you buried in the dirt You took the bullet, steadied your aim towards the back of his head But the fact remains, he lays in his grave and I remember every time I hear my name I wish nothing but the worst for you As you rot in your cell Know there's a special place reserved for you In the shadows of Hell I want them all to know the awful truth About the life you took in cold blood and why I won't stop until you come undone You will never escape what you have done You deserve the agony you have brought on You deserve to die
5.
Hollow Shell 04:04
God, don't you think we should talk? I'm having trouble knowing if you're really listening at all If there's a hell, you might as well mark a spot for my soul If there's a god, I'm sorry for I won't pass the gates I'm not quite sure if I deserve to wake up I want to sleep forever if it means never looking in the mirror Son, this is not a mountain that I've put before you to fall from This is but a small peak that I need you to overcome I didn't give light to this earth just to watch you fall to the dark I'm so sick of feeling like I am a hollow shell of the one that I know so well We all seem to show our true colors mean the most only when were seconds from a grave unmarked If you listen for my voice It will echo for centuries Everything beneath your feet The colors to make the black and white fade I exist in all you see I need someone to see The difference between who I am and who I want to be Oh my god, build me as I'm meant to be Shattered son in the sea, know that where you sink is temporary Because you'll rise and you'll see when you pass What you find from the depths of your grave will end your suffering Carry the cross until your bones break It's never too late to change
6.
Dead Man 02:57
Dead man, show me where you rest your head so I know not to follow any trace of your footsteps Gravedigger, I watched you take a breath and as the color left your face, the earth became your bed There's no escaping the truth, there's no coming back for you
7.
Resurrect 04:02
This is not my bed to rest, in the dirt with no beat hailing from my chest Resurrect me and bring color back to my eyes Dying pale-faced, sickened friend of mine, speak with me for the last time Dead Man, show me where you rest your head so I know not to follow any trace of your footsteps Gravedigger, I watched you take a breath and as the color left your face the earth became your bed This is the end of your existence but my own fate lies in the palm of my hands So every breath moves with steps to keep you far from me There’s no escaping the truth There’s no coming back for you I feel death’s hands wrapped around my neck but dear god, I want to live instead Only I will watch my veins run dry and give out Are we alone in life, or only when we die? Maybe with death will come a light to be spread over the sky and bring the end of something beautiful Maybe my life is meant to chase a god without a face to build me as I’m meant to be Oceans flood my bruised and red eyes as I awake and see the sun Maybe with death will come a light to be spread over the sky
8.
Tired but I simply can't sleep My hand on my heart but it keeps skipping beats I know there is a man in my place He put a ring on your finger and showed I'm a waste of your time Time passed and proved everyone right If I'm in the wrong, then why do I feel like I let go of the love of my life? I should have fought for you when I had the chance I took you for granted and let you walk out on the home we built What the hell am I supposed to do without you? I should have fought for you when I had the chance I didn't see you when you were here And now I see you everywhere I wear a disguise protecting my pride, pretending that I am happy You abandoned my world, had a baby girl, there's no coming back for us Your daughter is perfect, she has your eyes But winter is colder when I fall asleep without you at my side Winter will pass and I may relapse, but it's better to have you and lose you than to never have loved you at all There is a hole in my heart
9.
Darling, are you lost, adrift at sea? There is an anchor tied to your ankle that begs to watch you sink Is the bottom of the ocean where you want to make your bed? I could feel you slip through my fingers and sink towards the abyss But nothing that I did could ever keep you safe from the ocean that's filling your lungs There is an anchor tied to your ankle that begs to watch you sink Effervescent mind, sinking so fast You could have been just fine if you had listened when I cried out Stray from the tide or my words will become a distant sound Separate from the shore and you will surely drown My heart never felt so full, when you would wake in my bed You made a choice to return to the waves, and now it feels like a part of me is dead I would give anything to bring you back But you're gone, and you sleep in the lowest depths of the sea There is a hole in my heart A fragment remains but never the same You filled the space until you gave up on me With my feet stuck in the sand and just out of reach of grabbing your hand Your mind will sift through the past, your heart torn in half, this breath will be your last Sleep in the sea as the anchor becomes your destiny
10.
Unfamiliar stone of gray marked beginning and end of day Reality sinks like an anchor in water My body can't stop shaking, convulsing This is tragic and sickening This is The Quiet Disconnect No father should ever have to bury his son Every breath exhaled leads me closer But I'm starting to panic Because I am finding it hard to grasp and comprehend that no ink could spill from this pen And meet the words to send, to tell you I can't exist if you're non-existent Find your home in the sky to rest your soul Even if your voice won't move past your lips, I know we'll speak again And though I know you've died, I swear to god to try to keep your memory alive We all flirt with death but feel like were invincible Until one moment defines that we could be the next Is there a point in drifting through life when everything I love will pass, decay, and die? My face is the pale-white of your skin, my lungs have no breath to be held from within I just want to know you’re safe and sound, not just a body beneath the ground Oh god, I fear certain death and the end of day But what I fear the most is who you're going to take away If there has to be a beginning, then I want you to show me the end Fire spreads but I won't let it burn this bridge To give them life when my friends are dead

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released October 29, 2013

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Dayseeker San Diego, California

Hailing from Orange County, five refined veterans of the local music scene are blending the elements of rock, hardcore, and true passion in an effort to walk in the steps of those who came before, and to leave something behind for everyone who follows after. ... more

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